Friday, July 21, 2006

Vacations

Yeah it's true... i'm leaving for a month.. to a place where i have no internet :X so no blog :(

Well for one hand it will do me some good... i will get away from my personal Zahir.....well i have 2 actually, and i'll get away from both of them. So maybe it will pass... time will tell.


So anyway^^ have a great vacation for those of you who are in vacation, and see you in a month or so^^


merry meet and brightest blessings^^

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Nothing happens by accident

Why do people get so caught up in their little stuff, that they forget what it's really important? For example.... people can spend the whole day in a game (sometimes weeks...months... just stopping to eat and go to the bathroom... and a few hours of sleep) and don't even care about their friends, if they're ok or not... about a trip they were supose to be making, but that they didn't even buy a ticket yet...
Maybe we're just too lazy to search important things by ourselfs... or maybe we just like the "pleasures" of life too much, and don't care about the other things... that's why we have wars, that's why there is so much corruption... that's why the planet is dieing... because we don't care and we're too dam greedy!
"Things don't happen by accident", a friend of mine used to say, so everything that is wrong with the world, every disaster (the hurricanes, the tornados, the fires...) everything that we call "Nature's rath" is in fact cause by us... we oculd prevent all of this, we have the power to. We just don't care anymore!
If nothing happens by accident... then i met you for some reason. I think it helped me, knowing all of you... it changed me anyway... and all the things we face in life belong to the path we chose. We face them because they are what's best for us to grow as a person, even the bad things. How can you know how good it is to have peace without knowing what war is?
I'm not hating anyone... it made me stronger (i hope). I'm just disapointed... but i know it was for the best this way... eventually we will see the big lines. And it made me realize i want my life back! I don't care what you think anymore...what matters is that i'm happy. I don't care if you don't aprove my choices! You just have to accept who i am.
"Hello world this is me! Life should be fun for everyone"

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

a few tests...

well... i was really bored (yeah again..) and i went to a portugese site and made all the tests there...and this is me... acording to them. i can tell you this.. some parts are true ^^:

If you were a hit song from the 80's what would it be?
You are "Too Shy" from the Kajagoogoo (1983): your objective is to go unnoticed. If someone looks at you, you become panicked. If someone talks to you, you become instantly speechless. You have a sensitive side and are truly interesting, but you can hardly share with everybody else.
If you were a hit song from the 90's what would it be?
You are "Groove Is In The Heart" from Dee-Lite (1990): you like to have fun and to go out with people, but always keeping a cool pose. Even if at first sight it doesn't seem like it, you are a very romantic person and you let your emotions win more than your rational side.
If you were a football team what would you be?

You're from Togo: You don't even know very well where you are, most of the time you just want to take advantage of the good parts of life without worrying too much. You don't have ambition, so, everything that comes is good. If things go wrong, you shrug and say: let's go! Looking to those who are around you with sympathy and curiousity, you're not a sore looser and for you winning is like a miracle.
If you were a movie Triology what would it be?

You are Back To The Future: your life is such a mess that even you have difficulties in understanding it. You are endowed by a spirit with a notable disentangles.
If you were a char from Sex and the City, what would it be?

You are Carrie: you are very relaxed and funny, but as far as relationships go you like to feel an engangement and seriousness. You still think about the past alot and that prevents you from going forward. You are very bright but you let your heart lead the way.

What kind of an "ex" are you?

You are a jealous ex: you're an ex but you don't know it - this is because in your head there is still a big commitment between both parts. You deal bad with all the relationships that your old love has in his life. You turn green of envy and rush to find flaws in your ex' new girlfriend, even if she is a top model, good will
embassador from ONU or a volunteer in the fight to preserve the iberic lince.
If you were a Valentine's Day gift what would you be?
You are flowers: You are a person that likes simple things and life and that enjoy the little details of a relationship. You're delicate, thoughtful and not complicated.

What is your ideal place to make love?

Camping tent: you like to bring some adventure to your sex life to spice things up, but you don't show off. Your private life is private and it only concerns you - you hide everything.
How are you in Love?
You are very caring: you are sweet, sensitive and like to give as much attention as you can to your loved one. Although you're an ideal pair, you have to be careful. What is too sweet may cause nausea.
How are your kisses like?
Your kisses are intense: your kisses cause the boy's heart to beat really fast. They are passionate and unforgettable moments.

This is what happens when you're bored

Well... i was feeling really bored so... "hummm let's open google and do a image research" XD so... i tryed several nicks (from a few friends)... and tried eni lol

This is what i've got for eni: a
black cat (and a few others), a singer , a cute little fairy, an interview to Eni Oken and an oil company ....
i need to get a hobby lol -.-

Monday, July 10, 2006

meh

finally... some new things added/changed^^ i think i'm getting the hang of it XD
and i need to thank to my cute cute cute bro Rik and my dear friend Dani, cause they helped me a lot and they're my personal advisors^^

I've been a little depressed lately.. and today i was finally cleaning my e-mail (lol i had like 42 pages of mails... =X) and i saw one pretty old... from 17th september of 2004. It said how i couldn't get away from his life, how i would hurt him if i left, how i was afraid to show myself and i wanted to hide from the world... in the end it said "from a friendship always yours".
My heart was broken by the time i read it... i did know about this, but i had just forgotten about it. How i miss those days... the days i loved you and i didn't know... the days i had you all for myself....

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Cry....

"Now I still wonder why did you say goodbye
You let me stand here all alone
The pain inside my heart, it's tearing me apart
Cause now I stand here on my own
But now I cry myself to sleep
Only you are what I need
We can make it if we try
I am nowhere without you
I don't know what I should do
Cause my tears will never dry
And I still wonder why
I hope that you will see, how much you mean to me
I don't understand why you have gone
The pain inside my heart, it's tearing me apart
Cause now I stand here on my own
But now I cry myself to sleep
Only you are what I need
We can make it if we try
I am nowhere without you
I don't know what I should do
Cause my tears will never dry
And I still wonder why
It's like the flowers and the bees
Like the mountains and the trees
The love I feel for you baby
Like the desert needs the rain
It will always feel the same
The love I feel for you baby..."
Artist: Lasgo

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Beauty tips

This was written by Audrey Hepburn when she was asked to reveal her beauty tips:
1. To have attractive lips, say sweet words.
2. To have beautiful eyes, see the good side of people.
3. To have a slim body, make sure you share your food with the hungry.
4. To have nice hair, let a child pass her fingers through your hair at least once a day.
5. to have a good posture, walk with the certainty that you will never be alone.
6. People, much more that things, must be restaured, revived, rescued: never throw anyone away.
7. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of your arm. As we grow older, we discover why we have two hands, one to help ourselves, another one to help the other (the next person... had a few troubles translating this one).
8. The beauty of a woman isn't through the clothes she wears, or the shape of her body, or in the way she brushes her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes because this is the door to her heart, the place where love lives.
9. The beauty of a woman isn't in her facial expression, but the true beauty it's reflected in her soul. It's in the tenderness she gives, in the passion she shows.
10. The beauty of a woman grows as the years go by.

The Talmud is a book where all of the statements, phrases and sayings spoken by the Rabines through all times are recorded. One of them ends like this:
"Be careful when you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman was made from the rib of man. Not from the feet, to not be stepped on, and neither from the head to be superior, but from the side to be equal, from under the arm to be protected and from the heart's side, to be loved."

Monday, July 03, 2006

I tried...

I tried to dream a new dream, but i always end up dreaming about my old one.
I said things would be different now, that i wouldn't stay attached to my past anymore, but i can't help it. I'm always coming back to it...

Sure, i'm different from what you used to know me...a little bit. And so are you! I'm so proud to see you going on with your life, and fighting for it...
But life is made of choices... and if we take the "wrong" one, is just to see how good the "right" choice is.. if i didn't lost you i wouldn't know how important you were in my life... and you still are.
Remember when we first met? I was so inocent back there... but one thing i know... as soon as our eyes meet my legs started to melt... my heart pounded really fast... i still stay this way everytime we meet.
When i tried to tell you.. you didn't listen... you were prolly too dam hurt...so now i just love you in secret... i really wish you the best, you deserve it... you've been through alot and i wish you all the hapiness you can get... honestly.

...this is my secret...my soul... my dream... that i will continue to keep hidding...