Saturday, September 23, 2006

ah my God

OMG.. u find things were we least expect it... last time we did talk, we had this huge fight.. lol we didn't get along at all... i secretly had a little bit of a crush on you lol. Even if we were teasing each other so bad.

Anyway... last time we talked, i got so so so so pissed at you.. you and that Jacque person -.- and i was seriously considering leaving. But.. i just finished having this amazing talk with you.. for about 11hours straight and i can't seem to have enough of you.. we have so much in common^^

i shouldn't have given up on princes yet^^

Posted by .:: Eni ::. at 10:12 PM | | Comments

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Back to life...

Well... vacations are over and school started again today.... meh i'm gonna have a hardworking year, and i'm gonna teach for a month XD omg i'm so so so so nervous! What if i'm not cut out for the job? I only have untill january to prepare myself for it...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Anyway.. it's back to my ordinary life. Hopefully with all the work i have ahead, i will stop having nasty thoughts and start to live a little bit more... and stop beeing an idiot who still belives in guys and still waits for a prince to come and rescue me... (yeah i had a date today and he didn't ....show up -.-)
oh.. almost forgot... Happy Birthday to me^^ (yeah it was yesterday but doesn't matter^^)
meh i'm getting old :X

Posted by .:: Eni ::. at 7:30 PM | | Comments

Friday, August 18, 2006

When i'm feeling blue, nothing seems ok....

"cause to love you means so much more...."

yeah i'm back from hollidays... but my heart is even worse then before.... i like you more then i ever liked anyone, and you just don't even care....
So... i made a decision... like the waves wash away the sand, i'm gonna take you out of my life... slowly, bit by bit... but i'll make it... My heart tells me i was made for you but apparently i'm not. So ... i guess this a way to say goodbye....

Posted by .:: Eni ::. at 2:11 PM | | Comments

Friday, July 21, 2006

Vacations

Yeah it's true... i'm leaving for a month.. to a place where i have no internet :X so no blog :(

Well for one hand it will do me some good... i will get away from my personal Zahir.....well i have 2 actually, and i'll get away from both of them. So maybe it will pass... time will tell.


So anyway^^ have a great vacation for those of you who are in vacation, and see you in a month or so^^


merry meet and brightest blessings^^

Posted by .:: Eni ::. at 5:46 PM | | Comments

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Nothing happens by accident

Why do people get so caught up in their little stuff, that they forget what it's really important? For example.... people can spend the whole day in a game (sometimes weeks...months... just stopping to eat and go to the bathroom... and a few hours of sleep) and don't even care about their friends, if they're ok or not... about a trip they were supose to be making, but that they didn't even buy a ticket yet...
Maybe we're just too lazy to search important things by ourselfs... or maybe we just like the "pleasures" of life too much, and don't care about the other things... that's why we have wars, that's why there is so much corruption... that's why the planet is dieing... because we don't care and we're too dam greedy!
"Things don't happen by accident", a friend of mine used to say, so everything that is wrong with the world, every disaster (the hurricanes, the tornados, the fires...) everything that we call "Nature's rath" is in fact cause by us... we oculd prevent all of this, we have the power to. We just don't care anymore!
If nothing happens by accident... then i met you for some reason. I think it helped me, knowing all of you... it changed me anyway... and all the things we face in life belong to the path we chose. We face them because they are what's best for us to grow as a person, even the bad things. How can you know how good it is to have peace without knowing what war is?
I'm not hating anyone... it made me stronger (i hope). I'm just disapointed... but i know it was for the best this way... eventually we will see the big lines. And it made me realize i want my life back! I don't care what you think anymore...what matters is that i'm happy. I don't care if you don't aprove my choices! You just have to accept who i am.
"Hello world this is me! Life should be fun for everyone"

Posted by .:: Eni ::. at 12:02 PM | | Comments